Excited

Tomorrow I´m going to see a woman who is very strong person and I think she is the one who can help me. I need someone to help me to open my inner locks. I called her today and I was so relieved that she can meet me so quickly.



After the call I have been very emotional and almost start weeping. I think the feelings comes so strong because I might find the way out of my inner prison. The road in land of shadows have been long and finally the lighter path is ahead.



Maybe the hardest thing in my depression is that how my "comedowns" effects to my loveones. Specially to my huspand and our dogs. I have just find out how sensitive dogs are for your emotions. And that makes me feel so bad and guilty. It´s my job as an owner to give them a happy and good life.






So, waiting very impatiently tomorrow afternoon. I think my time has come to grow for the wonderful woman that is inside me and who want´s to show up herself.

Oscar Gala

I was on my friend´s flat watching The Oscar´s and I like it very much. Nice show from Alec Baldwin and Steve Martin. Funny guys and played well together.

The red carpet were little disappointment, felt like the camera were all the time in wrong place showing boring things; like George Clooney saying hi to his fans atleast 6 times and it ws the same clip every time! Also at the show they get Clooney very often to the picture. And he looked very boring. Maybe it was for them funny some way etc.

I think most of the statue went for right people. And we lived the emotions of winners with my friend, having tears in our eyes. So many happy, first time winners.

Only bad thing in this is that we did not sleep, not even 1 minute, last night and we had to go to work. This is horrible. I´m so tired that I almost fall asleep right here in my chair. I decided to leave early today and have some nap.

So we had fun time with my friend but I have to hope that I can cheer up when week is going on. It´s not fare if my family suffers for my tiredness when the reason for that is Oscar´s!

Now having some lunc and then joyrney to home shall begin!